When I was reading the books last year I was always Team Edward. I didn't like it when Jacob stuck his oar in Bella and Edward's relationship and wish he'd leave Bella alone when Edward left her. Since seeing New Moon I am actually swaying towards Team Jacob. I felt sorry for him. Now yes I have read Breaking Dawn so I know what happens but still in New Moon, he couldn't help who he was falling for. He felt he was better for Bella than what Edward was. I've decided I'm going to list my pro's and con's of both Edward and Jacob. Some people's opinions will be different to mine.

Edward Cullen

The Pro's
He can read people's minds. Thats pretty cool. He's a vampire. I'm interested by vampires. He's immortal and is unlikely to die. I'm not sure about living forever, but getting to live and see how the world turns out would be great. He's really cold. I prefer being too cold to being too hot. He's been around for years and is wise and knowledgeable and mature for his "age". Strong and fast which could come useful in some situations. Members of his family have amazing powers. Alice for instance can see the future. That would come in handy. He's charming. Sometimes. The way he talks. It's rather romantic. He sparkles in the sunlight. Thats something I would want to see.

The Con's
He could kill me. He's a vampire and has to drink some kind of blood. [Ew Gross!]. Seeming it's animal blood he has to litereally kill animals and if I was turned I don't think I could do that. He's kind of rude, pain in the ass, argumentative. He doesn't sleep. I sleep a lot. He's over protective and kind of stalkerish. It would creep me out if a boyfriend randomly came into my room and watched me sleep without me knowing. He can't go out in the sun in public.

Jacob Black

The Pro's
He's a cheerful character. More so that Edward obviously. He's funnier. He is warm which even though I prefer being cold he would come in handy in the winter when it's too cold. He's also very strong and fast like Edward. He's more adventurous. He can go out in the sun. Isn't always a wolf.

The Con's
He has a bit of a temper and could lash out if angered. He's a little young and immature and is a bit of a mornon at times. He's kind of reckless. He's forceful.

If you were Bella who would you choose? I know it's just a story and I know what happens in the end but it's just for fun.

My answer: Well I've been in a similar situation. My boyfriend was like Edward and I have a friend who was like Jacob. My friend would tell me how he thought my boyfriend wasn't any good for me and that I deserved better.
He was right. I ended up leaving my boyfriend. Not because of what he was saying but because of the way my boyfriend was.
I would choose Jacob. He's a better choice in my opinion but in Bella's case I'm glad about the outcome.

I stare at a blank sheet of white.
I struggle at what I want to write.
Coz all of these thoughts confuse my head.
As your sprawled out across my bed.
And thinking you are a failure it's true.
It's ashame that no one else is stopping you.
Coz this time I've really stepped up my game.
Your controlling and manipulating ways are now so lame.
From now on I'm one step ahead.
Your eyes now turn watery and a shade of red.
Don't pull that joker of a card out on me.
For once in my twisted life I'm free.
Really there is no point in bragging.
As there's a department that you seem to be lacking in.
So now the rain won't burden a tear.
Without your problems I can think clear.
You hoped for a kiss, a fuck, maybe more.
Well, I'm not going to be your whore.
Been there, done that, got the scars to show.
I'm sorry I disappointed you but my answer is NO!
You rise and you fall.
I won't be there when you call.
You can shed your blood, I won't shed mine.
Not this fucking time.

I wrote this one over a year ago. Was last summer after I was at a birthday party when my ex and my friend went back to mine. He just made me really angry and this is what I came out with when I was writing. Was kind of funny though. Coz I wouldn't kiss him he stormed off.

To be honest I never actually thought I would say this but at the moment I actually hate being single. Not because I need someone to be happy. I'm perfectly happy with being by myself. I don't need a man to keep me happy. Sure it's great when you're with someone that does make you happy. Anyways. The reason I don't like being single. For now at least is because as soon as my bebo relationship status turns to single the one guy who has tried to chat me up before comes back for another round of chatting me up. Just because I've been single for like 5 seconds does not mean I am on the look for someone else. I'm not going to jump straight into another relationship with another guy or even do anything with him. I'm not vulnerable so don't treat me like I am. Don't try and take advantage of me. I've been there, done that got the t-shirt saying what a stupid idiot I was. In previous break ups I've had I've done things I'm not proud of but I've learned from my mistakes and won't be going down those same roads again. I can promise myself that. Seriously though. This guy. Knew me since before Steven even came onto the scene. Soon as Steven was my boyfriend he hardly spoke to me. Now that Steven isn't in the picture he starts talking to me again. Coincidence? I think not. I didn't pick him before why would I now? Especially right after my biggest relationship ends. I need time to myself, to pick myself back up again and adapt to the way my life was before. For a while I'd even thought that I would never be able to love anyone else again because this relationship hurt so much. I loved him, well I still do, but being with each other wasn't doing either of us any good so it had to end. I realised though that not loving anyone else is not the way to go about it. Thats just going to bring me down so much. I love to love and someday I will find someone that is worth it all. I hope.

Being single isn't that bad. Just moments like when that happens. When you're alone when it's freezing and there's no one there to wrap their arms around you to keep you nice and warm. Or when you have a nightmare during the night and no one is there to tell you it was just a silly nightmare and it's going to be ok. There's more but thats my main ones.

On a happier note, vegetable pakora is yummy. :)

Was on my myspace today and was going through my pictures when I found some pictures from when I was a little kid and thought I would blog some of the pictures and maybe mention some of the good times I remember from being a kid.


Me and my big brother Scott. I loved those slippers and I was kind of obsessed with pandas.

Hated that dress. It was nice just the bow annoyed me.

Me and my big brother again.

And again.

I'm actually trying to remember what my favourite memories are of when I was a kid. Think the first one would be when my little cousin was born. I was the youngest until she came along. I was soooo excited especially when it was a girl. So when she was born I used to play with her and make sure she was ok. I'd still do anything for her.

My little cousin as a baby. She was adorable.

Next favourite memory would be Christmas. Christmas when you're younger was so much different to how it is now. When Santa existed and you got excited on Christmas Eve when you couldn't get to sleep because you were waiting for Santa to come. Thats one of the reasons why I'd be excited to have kids in the future. Just to see them get excited about Christmas. Also the Christmas parties and discos at school were so much fun. I remember getting chased a lot to dance with the boys and I'd run into the toilets to get away from them.

My Gramps coming over every weekend for his dinner and he would always give me some money or chocolate.
He'd sit there and would want to hear all about school and about my friends. He taught me how to whistle.

Going to the swing park and having the imagination of coming up with some pretty crazy games.

Family parties. I loved it when the whole of my mum's side of the family got together for a special occasion. It was the only time when everyone was together really. I remember at my gran and papa's golden wedding anniversary and my great uncle was chasing me around the hall and I couldn't stop laughing.

I also miss when I used to sit at the dinner table and I would just burst into a giggle fit for no reason. Nearly happened to me today actually.

There we go. Just a few of my favourite things from when I was little. Do you have any favourite memories from when you were a kid?